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Okay so some days I feel like all gung ho.  I can do this and I want this more than anything.  I want to be a size 7-8 again.  I want to feel comfortable in my own skin.  Then we are invited to a bar-b-cue and everyone is eating my favorite foods(potatoe salad, cheese burgers…) and I am sitting there trying to eat the alternative vegie burger and carrot sticks.  Okay now I know I am not crazy when I say not even close to the same thing.  Taste is what satisfies me and if I deny myself the yummy potatoe salad and cheese burger I binge.  Which is exactly what happen this weekend.  And the whole time I am eating I am enjoying myself and I am thinking I dont look that bad–I am too hard on myself.  Then reality checks in when we are invited out dancing or to a party and I have to dress up some what.  I put on my clothes(the ones that fit) and I am so dissatisfied with my reflection.  I cannot seem to get a happy medium.  I am the only person in my group of friends, family, and the such that is actively trying to lose wieght.  My husband bless his heart loves me just the way I am and doesn’t see me as having a wieght problem so that, all though good, allows me to say the heck with it he likes the way I look.  I don’t know what to do.   I have no and I mean no will power.  I am good when I am on this site and have you all to help me but once I sign off and I am back to the reality of my life it is off the wagon I go.  I can’t count calories as that makes it worse for me.  As soon as I see food as the enemy I want it all the more.  I sit home bored most of the time and food is my excitement.  I also end up feeling very aggravated most days by my kids fighting and making astronomical messes so I eat for comfort.  I do try to get out at least once a day and take them to the beach or to the park but sometimes gas, money, or the weather does not permit it.  I am at my witts end and as a matter of fact I just got of a site for plastic surgery(which by the way I cannot afford so I dont know why I was there) and the results are not that great.  The before and after pix dont reveal much of a difference and I would have to lose most of the wieght to get the result I want anyway.  I love to write by novels and that usually keeps me occupied but it requires concentration and with the kids home for the summer that is almost impossable.  If anyone has any ideas for please let me know.  You guys are my salvation and I wish I could just live on this site 24/7 for the support but that is not possable nor is it healthy.  It actually would be a little creepy-LOL.  Love you all

I need some help with good sources of protien that are low in fat.  If you have any ideas please reply

I want to thank you all for being there for me.  This site really has made a difference for me.  If I am not recieving help I get to help others and the combination gives me the incentive to go on.  I am back on the wagon today and I am letting go of the anguish I felt yesterday over the food choices I made the last two days.  Thanks for all of your support, you guys are the bomb digity!

Okay so the past two days have been horrible(I think).  Yesterday Me and my family went out to dinner at Ryans(a local buffet)and I did try to watch my choices and started with a large salad but I added some cottage cheese.  Then I had one of there famous butter rolls(absolutley to die for!).  My entree I did only have protien, baked chicken, some pulled pork and a couple pieces of fried shrimp.  Then I had a spoonful of banana pudding(the kind with real bananas and vanilla wafers).  I feel horrible about it.  Then today I had to work and I clean condo’s on Saturday which is hard strenous work, and I was starving after even though I brought some healthy food.  I ended up taking everyone to Dairy Queen for ice cream, then I grabbed a candy at the local pharmacy and shared a pepsi with my husband.  Hopefully I have got it out of my system and can get back on track tomarrow.

Hey guys and gals I found a diet I think is easy to follow without a whole lot of counting(who has time for counting?).  It is the Biggest Loser Diet.  It is just portion control and I found it surfing the net for insight on what my daily intakes should be.  It is based on 45% of your cals from carbs 30% from protien, 25% from fat.  Basically it is 4 serv of fresh fruit and vegies, 3 serv of lean meat or low fat diary, 2 serv whole grains, 1 serv of fats, oils, sweets equivelant of 200cal. So you just count your servings and chose healthy food.  Also you are allowed NO white foods–breads and pastas and potatoes.  You eat many small portions all day.  I am going to try it, if you want to you can join for like $5.00 a week online, I am going to try it on my own first.

I am not counting calories anymore.  I am just going to eat a healthy breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and I am not going to go back for seconds.  At night if I feel I need a snack I am going to opt for a healthy snack.  If I drink all my water and exercise I should be just fine.

I cannot get me food journal to do my calories correctly.  It says I should take in 250-750 calories a day and I know that cant by right.  I dont know what I should be taking in, I guess I will just go with 1000.  I had an issue today, I took the kids and myself to the beach and when we got home I was famished.  I had two ham and tomato sandwiches on hot dog buns and a bowl of cereal.  I guess I will just have to make up for it by eating light for dinner.  I hate when I do this to myself.  I get so hungry sometimes that I just want to eat, eat, eat.  I end up craving things and then I will eat til my cravings are satisfied.  Why is this so hard?

I am sure I am not alone in this.  I hate the way my thighs rub together when I walk!  My shorts if not form fitting or long get caught up in the friction and bunch up at my crotch (so very attractive I might add).  It is a wonder they don’t catch on fire while I walk/jog on my treadmill, the friction is soooooo aggravating!  So my mini quest along my wieght loss adventure is to lose enough to get me legs to not rub anymore.

Good morining all.  I just want to say Wow.  I did a workout yesterday and I am so sore this morning, a sign it is actually working.  It is called “Biggest Loser, Power Sculpt” I plan on doing this video everyother day.  I also found that after I put my treadmill on an incline (and not a very big incline) it increased my workout three fold, that I will do on opposite days of the video.  I just wanted to tell you all you should try this video, it is awesome.  Not alot of jumping around and there are real people on it, not those thin fit people you usually see but overweight people.  Which makes me feel as though it is something I can do, when I am like “oh my gosh I cant do that”, I look at the people on there and they are doing it and some are in worse shape than myself.  It is really a good video for sculpting and building muscle tone, then the treadmill is my fat burner.  I may be on to something here.

Thank you everyone for bringing light to my lack of knowledge on the calorie thing.  I think I am just going to try to eat healthy and not go back for seconds.  Exercise is going to be my main wieght loss program.  I am a rebellious person by nature and if I restrict myself to much I will surely fail.  You all are great and if we support each other like this we will all be thin and healthy.